phillyphan

Ohhhh i have to vent. Last night i totally lost my cool...i just realized i was being stupid and immature. So yes, i imed romer. i did. i had to! Seriously i couldn't stand it. i just figured the whole silent treatment was lame and we can still be friends, right? So i said hey and we talked for about 2 hours about stuff. just stuff nothing too interesting. I guess it just makes me feel better about myself, and yeah okay that sorta thing is still there but barely and i just need someone else to talk to sometimes. He acts so honest and like makes me feel better. I hate burning bridges, even if im sorta disappointed, i couldnt lose him as a friend.

Well this week is surely action packed. Yesterday was the awards assembly in the morning and then something called Marching in Dinner that night. Ohh right my award was the Princeton book award, which is pretty cool i guess...i got like some really sophisticated brain book and a letter from my college counselor like 'congrats!'. That was exciting (?) except that a lot of people didn't get awards- like 2 of my best friends. They totally deserved it over a lot of other people that got them but idk, i guess i was lucky/ i did slave over school this year. But marching in was amazing, we got our senior blazers and sang our senior song, then we exchanged pins/ ate with our senior from JR/SR- i sat with one of my best friends, A.  Ive been friends with A since my freshman year and i have no idea what i will do without her next year. She helped me out of my awkward underclassman stage and now i guess im what some call "normal"-ish, though no one at my school is actually normal. I'm finally a senior!..which means I'm that much closer to college. ahh college.

So today was not half as exciting, sadly. It was exam return. I did well on most of my exams except bio, which i didnt do so hot but passed which is the only thing that matters in that class, ew. Oh, i also often act as my best friend's side kick stalker. We went around to all the (male) faculty, taking pictures with them. Pretty fly i must say, and my bff was ecstatic because we got a pic with my adorable teacher who just got married heh married. Marriage is for losers anyway right?? Tonight was lame... i went out with the fam, oh the fam, complaining and talking about college and vacations that don't exist-- ps right now my life = college and doing whatever i need for college, and staying under 120.

As life drones on, i sit here watching my buddylist, staring at romers screenname. yep tis life, and i obviously I need one! Atleast tomorrow is graduation which means school is officially, officially over! So will start the summer of college visiting, crazy tennis, nerdy summer science camp, and work with crack boss and secretly beloved romer. woopee do-da-day.

Well first i must point out that GREEK is on TONIGHT. The most amazing and addicting show ever. Next week is the season finale but tonight, so the commericals show, cassey and evan are getting back together! I used to want cassey and cappie to be together again but he's being a complete jerk with rebecca, while evans been trying so hard, so he doesn't deserve cassey at all. I cannot describe my excitment...obviously i have no life. slash i wish my life was more exciting... college where are you?

Yesterday was the first day of june! Finally its actually summer. I volunteered in the city and walk to one of my favorite places, Whole Foods, for lunch. They have such good fruit that i don't even think about how im having no carbs and how healthy im eating lol, not to mention the excellent crazy people watching. I volunteer at a different museum on sundays and its pretty cool. I dont like it as much as where i work yet, but its getting better i must admit. Im meeting more people and learning a lot. I think i like working because i learn almost as much about different people i meet and work with as i learn actually doing my job. After work i met the girls at the mall and we ate and then saw Sex in the City! The movie was amazing but reflecting on it, it basically makes me never want to get married. I feel like Samantha, except not raunchy lmao and not dying to color 24/7, or at all actually.

So after the movie, i was dead, and when i got home romer was online... of course i had to stay up and await his anxious im asking 'where ive been' and 'how we haven't talked in so long'. never happened. I sat tapping at my desk for 30 minutes obsessively ordering new shoes i didn't need and he never messaged me. I got absolutely frustrated, put up a nasty facebook status, and crashed. Obviously the silent treatment from the day before didn't work, and he's not dying to talk to me or ask whats wrong. Why would i think he cares anyway? I guess because he used to care, for that snapshot in time. Well more like a few good months but now it seems like it was all in a blink of an eye... the ugly stuff always seems longer and drawn out. So i went to bed late and of course, as all 17 year olds do when theres no school, i slept in :)

My annoying mom had to wake me up of course to go running and we did. We talked about gossip at school, who will get awards at the closing assembly tomorrow, who i like, dont like, summer stuff, etc. Good news is that I am getting some kind of award tomorrow because i got a letter about it, i just don't know which one... kinda exciting? Anyway, then we went to starbucks, i had an awkward encounter with a girl from my school and her fam, and then i sat outside studying for french sat2. I don't think i can show my face outside again I got so burnt. I was trying to obtain a clear complexion for the junior/senior dinner tomorrow, but now im afraid they'll mistake me for the lobster dinner. Im actually excited for that though...but nothing can compare to my excitement for tonight! loser? yes!

MAY30

Todays been pretty chill. Well it is the first day of summer. I went running and then out for lunch with my mom. Since I've been studying for 2 weeks straight i think i gained like 15 lbs, its kinda sad. Whenever I feel bad for myself studying so much im like ohhhkay one more piece of cake. Plus my birthday was last week so i ate a lot of junk. After lunch we met my moms friend and went to look at her garden and down the street at this old farm they were filming "marley and me" or something but OWEN Wilson was there!!! So we stayed and watched for like 10 minutes which was cool, im so pissed i didn't have my camera. I'm major celeb stalker, like major. I went on a mary-kate and ashley cruise when i was 9 and like followed them everywhere. Ohhh the best was when my french class went to france-- we saw justin long in the louvre and notre dame cathedral lmao. He was like "hey guys, am i stalking you or are you stalking me??" It was great and we got pics, of course.

So tonight I'm going to my best friend's, m's, high school musical- West Side Story. I haven't seen her for like 3 months! We did ballet together in middle school and have been best friends since. The only problem is she lives in new jersey and since we don't do ballet anymore i hardly see her but we talk everyday. Her plays are always amazing cuz she goes to public school haha plus she has bday presents for me so im extra excited. I'm goonna get home late and I have to get up early tomorrow for work...and then go shopping later! I'm going to camp at Penn this summer so i need new clothes, of course!

MAY31

Ahhh last night was fun. I saw m's play. It was really good and m had a big part/danced a lot. I sat with c, her sister--my other bff and we chatted baout her new bf, t. Not to mention that there were so many cute guys in the play, and im picky- very much so. Anyway they also gave me my bday present yay which ncluded a lot of clothes from guess :). We didn't get home until about 12 so i was dead getting up today for work lol but we stopped for starbs on the way since it is my sisters birthday.

Today was long. Every Saturday i have work and lets just say that it has its moments...good and bad. i really like some people i work with but others not so much. So much drama has been going on lately which was kinda fun but now i wish it would stop... i wish i could go back in time and have it be last summer at work. I have a new best friend this year J which is great but also i have a new boss who flirts with the other workers and texts all day. I really like her as a person- like before she got the job but lately idk and she hasnt responded to me at all when i asked her and sent an email about extra days this summer. I really like working there tho i just wish there wasnt so much tension- mostly between her and other staff people that im friends with. Also today what really got me was when she went in the back staff room with the guy i like for about 20 minutes and totally blew off what she was supposed to be doing--helping me. and yesssss shes like 10 years older than him. Anyway i wish things would get cleared up there lol especially when J leaves im gona b stuck by myself with these people...plus like 3 or 4 other people i get along with, just don't talk to about personal stuff. I used to talk to him, lets call him "romer". I have no idea what happened with our whole deal but basically now he doesn't talk to me unless i talk to him, and when i do he barely responds....so today i started the silent treatment. I felt aweful after i left work but hey it's all i could do and its not like he tried to talk to me anyway. i mean romer actually doesnt talk to me unless i talk to him.- so today might have just seemed weird cuz i didnt try to, but he can think what he wants and if all goes well i either will forget how amazing he is/was eventually, or he'll talk to me...? I would prefer the later but think the former is more probable, sadly. But otherwise work was fun. There were 2 chorus groups who came to sing and we got free ice cream.

We just had my sisters birthday party...Basically my grandparents come over, we eat a lot and then she spends about an hour opening her 5765543 presents. fun right? But then i watched phillies and i just gave up on them and decided to take my anger out blogging because theyre losing to florida 7-2 right now. I'm just gona go back down and check the score. Happy Saturday!...tomorrows june!